Today is my Cancerversary. Twenty years, Breast Cancer, Stage II. I've waited a long time to say "twenty" in front of this event, yet somehow, now that it's here, the word has lost it's luster.
Year after year on this date I thank God for allowing me more time with my family, to be able to watch my children grow into wonderful adults and to just enjoy life. But as grateful as I am, I've become angry. Not angry about what has happened to Jessica, but angry that her August 12th celebrations are but a date in time which marks the beginning of her cancer journey....not a date allowing her to look back in amazment of what she is able to put behind her, as I have done. She still lives, and relives, the events that continue to haunt her young life. Hodgkin's Lymphoma. Stage I. Most curable cancer...yada, yada, yada.
But today I will thank God once again for allowing me to be here to help my daughter through her journey, to watch in awe as she gains more strength and deeper courage with each passing year, fighting harder with time so that when she reaches her "twenty", there will be a true Celebration. And I hope God allows me to be here for that!
Stay strong Jessica. We're all praying for you and I know that Victory is close at hand!
Thank you to all my friends and family for your thoughts and well-wishes for this day. You all mean the world to me. And special thanks to Stefanie & Adam and Jessica & Justin for planning my "surprise dinner" celebration when everyone was in town. What a page for "my memory book"!! Jackie--think of a title!!
And Happy Birthday to Walt and to David on this great day!
Monday, April 20, 2009
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Congratulations on your anniversary! You are the best mom-in-law and one of the strongest people I know.
Chris, I can't believe 20 years have passed since that devistating April day. Thirty years old and three young girls. Oh...when I think back and remember... But God has kept you here for a reason. You have shown all of us what it is to have trememdous strength and courage. You have gone thru so much and always with a smile on your face. You always try to see the positive in any situation. You truly are an inspiration to so many people. I'm so lucky to have you as my sister. Love ya :)
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