Today would have been Jessica's 4th Cancerversary. Four years since her personal nightmare began as we could do little more than walk beside her. At that time we expected the years to be counted down with anticipation, with each passing year a step closer to her prize of "CURE". Even in the bad times, we had hope as we celebrated each August 12th. Dinner and drinks to mark the BC/AC (before cancer/after cancer) timeline. And we would find a renewed hope and optimism as we laughed and joked and always expected that the next celebration would finally be the one that would set her "cancer free".
This year there will be no dinner. And for Jessica there will be no pain. For four years she endured all that came with cancer and it's treatment. Now it is our burden as we feel the pain as we continue our attempts of putting one foot in front of the other. Maybe today she'll look down upon us and give us renewed optimism as we reflect upon the way that she lived her all too short life. Because that's what she did, even in the worst of times...always giving us hope, and love, and a reason to smile.
"For when tomorrow starts without me, don't think we're far apart. For every time you think of me, I'm right there in your heart."
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
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I just wanted to leave you a message today to let you know that I remembered today's date. Four years ago I remember coming over with my girls to visit. Everyone was positive. Most cureable cancer I remember hearing. I could only imagine at that time and now I have more insight than I could of only thought possible. I pray for your comfort today as I always have. With all my love, ontinued prayes, and support. Jenny
Your beautiful daughter gave many people a reason to smile. I think of her often. On this day you are very much in my thoughts. Alyson
Even though she didnt win the war... she sure did win many battles. To many times to count,when with her even if she felt a little off, it never stoped her from making the most of whatever we did. She was so strong in mind and spirt. Ive never met anybody like that before I met her. Jessica's life may have been short but when talking to her I always felt her soul was old and wise, she always found light even in dark places. She gave me perspective on things that nobody else ever has. I miss her. The only thing thats gives me comfort is knowing I was one of the lucky one's. One of the people that had the pleasure and privilege to know her. For that I am thankful. My thoughts are with you today.
-Joe
I truly felt lucky for knowing Jessica, and having her as a friend. She was truly an incredible person in so many ways. She touched so many people's lives. Although my heart aches when thinking about how she's gone, I think about the memories we made together--her smile, her laugh..everything...and it hurts but I'm so thankful to have the memories that I have of her. Your family will always be in my thoughts.
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