I feel as though I am being encouraged to stay away and seek my solitude elsewhere, although my heart cannot believe that this would be so...

I am discovering that the timing of my visits to Tod of late are not allowing me to find the peace and serenity that I so strongly desire. I realize that the circumstances in my life keep leading me there, hoping to allow my eyes to close and "hear" that comforting peace. But there are those whose livelihood brings them nearby, disrupting the karma that surrounds me, and today it was I who kept a distance, as I witnessed the grief surrounding a graveside service, of someone clearly much loved....

So I left...wishing that I could stay...and help my heart to heal...

And as I drove away, I heard Bon Jovi singing Live Before you Die, making me wonder all the more just where I am to be in this life and just how to go about finding that destiny. So I will listen, patiently, wherever I am able to rest, hoping to "hear" God guide me to where my life's journey shall continue...