July 8, 2009 – July 8, 2014

I have agonized over this post for weeks as it is nearly impossible to fathom the reality of this day, let alone be truly able to express what lies deep within my fractured soul. Five years.  How can this be?  How can five years feel like a lifetime ago and yet those heartbreaking memories are still as vivid as if they happened yesterday?  Five years… unbelievably more than 1,800 days have passed since I last saw you…touched you…held you…

Five years…

My dreams dare to wander to where our lives would be had God not called you home.  Would you have followed the hard sought path of becoming a nurse and helping others though their cancer journey?  Would you have married and be raising a family of your own while watching your nephew Jack be born and thrive, Rocco grow and become a big brother to Trent?  Would we have mourned the tragic loss of Justin…. Would our family have been restored or would it have continued on its current path?  George had the privilege of seeing what would become of those he loved most had he never lived when Clarence unveiled that truth in “It’s a Wonderful Life”….but we will never know what would have been had your journey not ended so soon.  So many questions remain - yet we know that not all answers are meant to be revealed.

Five years...

Yes.  It has been a constant struggle of learning to live without you. But I have laughed again…lived again…even loved again.  And though my heart is filled with sorrow today, we will all celebrate you as we reminisce about those wonderful moments shared with you and the love, happiness and joy that you gave to each one of us.  

So thank you God, for allowing Jessica to grace our lives, and for helping to create the beautiful memories that we all share of her today.

Goodnight Miss Jessica.

I love you and miss you.

Always.  Forever.