Thirty years ago today...

Dear Jessica-

This day that you share with Stefanie has been a struggle for us all since you've been gone.  How can we be joyful without you physically within our midst? How can our hearts celebrate as it simultaneously writhes in pain?  There cannot, nor will there ever be, a true understanding of these profound emotions. Yet somehow, I believe that you are encouraging us to move forward and fully cherish the gifts of this day...those which have continued to bless our family as you have allowed Jack to experience your love, and I'm certain that his little sister is learning of you too as she readies herself for our world. And that same love shines through to all of us, as it must be your driving force behind the positive "God winks" that have appeared of late to many of us...with little or no plausible explanation.

So Happy Birthday my dear Jessica and thank you for all of those wonderful gifts that you've given, and continue to bestow upon us.  And with your love illuminating our hearts, may we allow ourselves to genuinely enjoy this day of celebration with your sister Stefanie, our angel here on earth, as you once again celebrate with God, amongst all of the angels in Heaven.

Happy Birthday Stefanie.
Happy Birthday Jessica.
I love you both with all my heart.
Always.