Saturday, July 8, 2017

Eight Years


Every year at this time, my greatest wish is to celebrate you Jessica, just as Stefanie continues to do with her Annual Ice Cream Day. Our family and friends gather to reminisce, while we enjoy ice cream in your honor. And every year you are with us, as we share memories, and love…and tears

You know Jess…for the last eight years there has been a deafening silence in this house, most noticeably within your room. There are so many memories buried there, deep within the crevices of those walls, where so much love and laughter was once shared, along with your hopes and dreams. But then those dreams were shattered and life, for us, would never be the same.

Lately though, little by little, I have been finding the courage to unlock the veils of protection that your room had created to shield it from its past. With encouragement by those who love you as I do, I found what I believe will bring a smile to your eyes, and the laughter that you cherished, back to where it all began.

Soon the transformation will be complete.  Jack & Amelia will be surrounded by many of your treasured possessions as they play and sleep where you did…laugh as you would have…and make beautiful new memories…all in a place that you once called your own. 

I can picture you watching over and playing with them as though you were here. Laughing and joking and being the aunt that you always dreamed of becoming. How they would have loved you…how you would have loved them, if only given the chance…

I was always so proud of you Jessica, and I hope that my decision to celebrate you - by bringing love, life, and laughter back to where it was once so abundant, will make you proud as well. I miss you Jessica. Every moment…of every day.

Good night Miss Jessica.
I love you. Always.

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